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2 Shitty Pen
Feb. 6th, 2025 10:42 amS: 10:42am
I have this weird thing going, where I am dedicated to only using a certain pen when writing in my planner in hopes to use up the ink completely before moving on to another pen.
It all started several months ago...you see we have a bunch of pens in the "junk drawer" in the kitchen and some pens write nicer than others, but I can't seem to find myself to throw away the shittier pens so it stays in the junk drawer. Problem is, pens start to accumulate and none are tossed so I decided to pick the shittiest pen to use it up. If I use it up, then I can get rid of it. So I endured using a shitty pen until it ran out, then I picked the next shittiest pen, which was identical to the first shitty pen and as of the last few days, it is starting to run out, so it's writing extra shitty and I'm over here enduring it. Why? So I get the satisfaction of finishing off the shitty pen so that I can finally get rid of it, otherwise it will just get shuffled around in the junk drawer endlessly. I can't wait until this shitty pen runs out so I can pick the next (3rd) shittiest pen from the junk drawer.
Justification:
-I can use it up (not waste)
-I can declutter the shitty pen once used
(*Is it because I am obsessed with not being "wasteful"? Is it because I am disgusted with how wasteful most people are and concerned about the environmental effects? Is it because I have hoarding tendencies?)
These are thoughts I normally just keep in my own head, but decided to write about it due to the goals stated in my first post.
If I could pick any pen that I wanted, my first choice would be a blue Bic Crystal Pen. It writes smooth and I love the way it feels. I haven't used it in many many many years because I can't justify buying pens because I have so many pens! (*Is it because I feel like I'm not worth it?)
E: 11:19am
I have this weird thing going, where I am dedicated to only using a certain pen when writing in my planner in hopes to use up the ink completely before moving on to another pen.
It all started several months ago...you see we have a bunch of pens in the "junk drawer" in the kitchen and some pens write nicer than others, but I can't seem to find myself to throw away the shittier pens so it stays in the junk drawer. Problem is, pens start to accumulate and none are tossed so I decided to pick the shittiest pen to use it up. If I use it up, then I can get rid of it. So I endured using a shitty pen until it ran out, then I picked the next shittiest pen, which was identical to the first shitty pen and as of the last few days, it is starting to run out, so it's writing extra shitty and I'm over here enduring it. Why? So I get the satisfaction of finishing off the shitty pen so that I can finally get rid of it, otherwise it will just get shuffled around in the junk drawer endlessly. I can't wait until this shitty pen runs out so I can pick the next (3rd) shittiest pen from the junk drawer.
Justification:
-I can use it up (not waste)
-I can declutter the shitty pen once used
(*Is it because I am obsessed with not being "wasteful"? Is it because I am disgusted with how wasteful most people are and concerned about the environmental effects? Is it because I have hoarding tendencies?)
These are thoughts I normally just keep in my own head, but decided to write about it due to the goals stated in my first post.
If I could pick any pen that I wanted, my first choice would be a blue Bic Crystal Pen. It writes smooth and I love the way it feels. I haven't used it in many many many years because I can't justify buying pens because I have so many pens! (*Is it because I feel like I'm not worth it?)
E: 11:19am
